haha....funny me....

haha..i have grow older but .....i still like the same....really this time i really want 2 change n lead wat God want mi 2 b.....but..i so let ppl disappointed.....i now really want 2 cry.cry out loud...n question myself n ask God y i like this......n tell Him i'm sorri..i can't done wat He want mi 2 be...really feel so u...... but wat can i do....cry?.....i dun noe feel so lonely, hopeless....pls....tell mi wat i should do now....................really...i juz want 2 b the life....want God want mi 2 b....n i juz full of s..... f... n w...... now shld i read Word or studying?????