an assurance or feeling

sometimes I feel like escape from the reality..but hide in God or my dream..so tt I no need to face the cruelty world...but i can't so i sometime choose 2 be negative so that maybe no one will care mi or even i willing 2 face it as i noe God there...now i really need 2 really depend on Him and nt take it as Granted..if nt i can't go another level..