haha...Yesterday n today

I feel very sad...Because my parents n my result..Not I doing bad but I done quite well..I get three distinctions(A1)..Two get C(C5 & C6) and only English get D7...Then I quite happy my result and I give my parents 2 see my progress card and I thought they may praise mi or encourage me but nope...My mum say nothing and my dad see my English then he say to me: "u should pass your English..It's very important.." I feel very sad after I heard this..Then my tears almost come out..Then I quickly go 2 my room n I cry 2 God..And I told Him..I really dun like English n I have no faith 2 pass it n I noe this D7 is jus a sympathize mark..but i console myself tt i quite smart that i can get distinction for my other subjects..and this is the work of His...n i heard God told mi whether i believe Him that i can pass English..then i sae i believe but i dun believe myself..i dun have any tuition n my basic is so worse that my grammar and my sentence structure have many errors..then i have no one to teach mi the basic n how i should write...i dun noe when should i use past participation...i dun noe many thing..then i call elaine but she didn't answer..then i call Qinning..then i burst out of tears tt wat i didn't expect..then my dad saw mi cry..then he sae:"i sae u so u no happy n cry.."..i heard tt n i cry even more..then i try 2 pretend that i alright..then i told myself i tomorrow go buy assessment book n i really go but my parent dun really understand us n now my bro is outside my house n juz now is a mess..cry, angry shouting...and all kind of thing..i feel this home like Hell..hope 2 run away n maybe they will think sensible but inoe tt nt wat God's plan n if i really run away then i very irresponsible...but in this incident..God's there with me no matter wat happen..