lalala

lalalal...
finding jobs...no veri much jobs were suited for me...but i gt many interest..
examples..i can be a waitresses, a sales assistant or a helper in the cooking or a cashier..but still haven't find any jobs...ahahha..but i also gt some conditions..my paid must be reasonable..then my one day off must be at weekend..hahah...
today..go exercise with yiwen..then find out that my stamina have become so lousy that i run only 400m..i veri tired...then i can't do sit-up...hahah..so will try 2 do situp..for the sake of nt have a little tummies..(as i become more fat)..hahha
then today also find job..then yiwen buy ring..n so i have e sam ring as her..n didi also have same ring as yiwen..hahah..love to go out..but no one ask me out...haha..so today gt yiwen..if nt i will be rotten at home..hahah..kiat mae came back from malaysia..even though is a short trip but i will still miss her..(she onli go for 2 days)..hahaha..n i remember my cousin who is still at usa...i veri miss her...she that day go usa with her family as her husband wan 2 work...n leave for 2 year...n i at the airport to see them leaving..i can't bear them leave..n i cry..i tell myself i will nt cry..but still can't hold the tears from droping...ahhaha..then we hug each other...she next year then come back..i guess..n i looking forward for them 2 come back..i veri miss them...sometimes i will keep on thinking the past..n sometime will bypass her house...hoping 2 see them but i still have 2 wait for one more year..sian..hahah..so i dun like the feeling of leave...i pray tt all my family n frienz will nt one day leave me..tt mean die...but i wish i die earlier so that i will nt have that feeling..that is torture...i dun like...n Thank God that i dun need 2 bear it...as i have one experience..my grandma mother die n i attend the funeral...i cry..even though we nt close..so i noe if any of my frien n family especially.. i will gone crazy..so value ur life..as i will nt wan 2 attend any of funeral...unless is natural death..hahah..tt alright..as i may nt be on earth..as i veri old le..hahah
i still have nt get over some trials...some trials keep on bounce on me...n i juz hope to dodge..but can't...n if i really dodge..it will still bounce on me...i today thought it will be a nice day..but shi fu n elaine ask my family thing..n it nt pleasant to me..so i quite nt happy..haha