Tired

The Love in me make me feel so uncomforted to sit down looking n ponder...but it make me want to stand out and shout out this love....
Dun u noe tt i thinking of you
dun u noe know tt i calling you
from now n then waiting for you
to turn back n smile to me
but everytime it turn out to be in vain
how i wish u will jus let me see...................

hahahah..dunno how to continue....my eng still is limited...hahah..time to read more book

since i come
this world have becoming more empty
more dull
it no longer to be beautiful
n my presence is a crack to it beauty

hahaha...nth...comment again

your love is so beautiful
that i seem so unworthy of ur love
no matter wat i do
i still seem so stupid
n ur love so perfect
surround me
which keep me so touch
but this world have stop me

lalalal...thinking

i have run away
from you
from the memory
but still i unable
to control my feeling to u

yawning....................very tired

y i seem like a dirt in your eyes?
y i seem like a nothing, rubbish?
y my effort seem in vain?
y u can't feel my love toward you?
y u wan 2 behave like nothing happen?

eyes dropping.....so much to sae

have this world stop?
have this world harden?
have this world become selfish?
have this world change?
y it is no longer the world tt i noe?

hot sia...even though outside is raining

where am i now?
why i here?
who am i?
what can i do?
which step i should do?

brain stuck...thinking...ponder.....recalling....

y the light tt is here hae gone?
y it leave me?
y i can't find it?
y my world become so dark?

hahahah..y again...hahahhahahahha...hohoho....yesterday i confirm tt minbin have stop run the race with me le....n also i noe no matter wat i sae...chun ping will still do her own way....so?tt is e question for me....n i sigh...no matter wat...i noe there is a reason...a time....n so i jus have to wait....hahah...but it seem like i am an impatient people even through there are ppl sae i patient...but becoz i dun like wait so i late ...hahahha....

changes let u to be so unfamiliar
i no longer know who r u
or maybe at the start i do not know u
or it is my gullible
and i dunno how to face you
unable to behave normal
pardon for my leave
confusing me have to leave
to run away from this reality
no matter how i smile
my laugh still can't hid e bitterness
e pain let me so numb
so pain tt i can't forgot u

hshahhaha...my dad back home....hahaha...i dunno wat to write le....it have stop...n my dad have sae something....now everything is broken(spoilt), so we have to start anew(a fresh)....hahaa...but this choice is in my hand....whether i wan to let God or i wan 2 b like this....is me to sae whether it shall b a gd ending or bad ending.....hahaah

i wan to do wat u wan me to do
but i have no courage to go forth
my fear and everything have pull my leg to move
n no matter wat u have promise
it seem dull for me
i wan 2 rest but i can't
i wan to fight but it seem like i lost my sword
n now i was like a corpse pulling to a world i dun like
this world have tiring me
causing me to have no strength to hold this sword
and cut off the "vine" tt is hurting me
n i no longer wan to bear this
i wan to fight back
i nid your strength
your grace
to won this battle