commitment?

wat is commitment?...haha...i go check dictionary online...
1.the act of committing.
2.the state of being committed.
3.the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4.a pledge or promise; obligation: We have made a commitment to pay our bills on time.
5.engagement; involvement: They have a sincere commitment to religion.
6.perpetration or commission, as of a crime.
7.consignment, as to prison.
8.confinement to a mental institution or hospital: The psychiatrist recommended commitment.
9.an order, as by a court or judge, confining a person to a mental institution or hospital.
10.Law. a written order of a court directing that someone be confined in prison; mittimus.
11.Parliamentary Procedure. the act of referring or entrusting to a committee for consideration.
12.Stock Exchange.
a.an agreement to buy or sell securities.
b.a sale or purchase of securities.
n also:
1. The act or an instance of committing, especially:
1. The act of referring a legislative bill to committee.
2. Official consignment, as to a prison or mental health facility.
3. A court order authorizing consignment to a prison.
2.
1. A pledge to do.
2. Something pledged, especially an engagement by contract involving financial obligation.
3. The state of being bound emotionally or intellectually to a course of action or to another person or persons: a deep commitment to liberal policies; a profound commitment to the family.

hmmm...so wat is commitment 2 me? i'm a typical taurus n snake...so i do have some characteristic....n maybe i didn't show or maybe u all didn't notice...
i plan something n suddenly pop out an commitment 2 stop my plan....n one is very surprise tt i accept...n now coming e second n tt is maybe which i can't as i didn't really think tt solve e problem....n so wat can this b done if we r nt in e right, sound mind....we didn't click...n man....i nid time, i nid something 2 convines me tt this is a perfect plan....or else it 2 me is ridicule or something 2 force me or tie me up or rob my freedom....if i have made decision n nth can stop me unless other solution is so much better then i will implement...
man...u can sae me wat....but i'm sorry....i noe i hurt u...i noe i have fail my role as a sister, but tt is me...hope u can accept me...n this is a time when i nt in a very gd condition...so if can tolerate me...even though i have annoy so many ppl....
so commitment 2 me is a bit hard but i can do it de...but.........i really dunno how 2 sae...on e verge of tears.........so.......i noe i useless, i damn hopeless....n so this few day i have numb myself by nt eating or nt having slp, or go out study.......but my heart is paining........so pain tt every day n night i jus feel like crying...but everytime i hold back..............man....i going crazy............stomach jus like my mind...nt in a gd condition...no appetite...feel like vomit when i eat something...haha...maybe is e mind cause or wat....this maybe a gd news or bad news...as i sick is bad news...but in other way, i will b having more attention from family or maybe can stop e wars in my family...arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr................hurt is still there....n i think i can't sew it back...n mine is like bleeding all this long...no matter who i with...maybe with God...i dun have...but i a bit escaping or blaming myself....but God is great....He's awesome..........He deserve all praises