disappointment

hmmmm....i dun dare to ask n wan from other things, word even if i desire....as they're far too gd for me...n i jus noe tt rejection n disappointment is so pain which is the thing that let me to run as far as i can.
I dun dare to ask for thing for those who are closer than me or should i sae i think i close to them...jus one side thought....maybe becoz i expect they will do or i dun dare becoz i think i will b their burden n wasting their time...that y i dun really like to take a lift from pp dad car. however those nt close to me, i will maybe ask or watever....maybe becoz i dun give a damn? or becoz i noe they will not think wat? i not sae pp dad will feel tt...but it's my feeling....i jus dun wan....my skin very thin..haha
when i'm sad, angry, frustrated...i usually will express it out by my voice n even face but becoz i'm I personality i will nt express to other who nt close to me or even the closer....i will jus smile...n so laugh or smile is alway my mask...n i think i gt blog this similar post b4...but somehow onli one or two noe tt....my style is haha.....very unique....onli me...many ppl ask me y i love to laugh...n i dun answer...if i ans i think i will sae one smile will brighten ur day then laughter will brighten u...so y dun i laugh?
quite disappoint by a lot of stuff...haha....lol