Today

today didn't serve..n tt gd as i nt in a tip top condition....
still thinking...wan 2 thrash thing out....myabe i will wait until result out....
sacrifical praise...then gt sacrifical attitude? thinking even i not now very gd...but i thinking my attiude cannot be so bad....so must have a gd attitude?
i still angry...tt y i didn't give myself a gd meal...
today archery super bad...dun have a gd bow n arrow....which make me feel worse...so i anyhow shoot but anyhow shoot still gt one or two arrow in the yellow....tt is funny....as when i try to serious shoot but somehow e arrow or e bow gt problem n cause my arrow to hit white or black or even miss...tt is like........
i dun wan 2 b failure for eng...i noe my eng is like shit....nt even primary sch kid but do u think i proud of tt? i try n still like this....wat do u wan me 2 do.....i cry le n try again but still...so? i tell myself let try again with a gd attitude...n i really done it....but somehow i b defeated by other criticism n word....how cruel is this world? i try nt to really show my bad mood as ppl will be affect.....but somehow nt so gd.....ggaga...i dun to hear any criticism anymore....esp when i down or when i nid encouragement pls dun pull me down.....if nt maybe i will nt able to stand up le..now maybe trying to stand up but......
anyway yest ben take my photo to disturb me but somehow i nt very much be affect....gaga...as many of my pic n video nt nice....so tt one is also in my expectancy.....n only few have taking photo skill...hmmm...maybe i also...:P
n yest go toa payoh to meet alan...haha....he treat me to long john silver which really surprise me...haha...n we have a gd fellowship...:P
expectation kill ppl....n still i wan 2 reach my own n other expectation..but didn't succeed. sad abt tt....n all the encouragment by ppl seem like didn't help...even pp, pl, elaine n hq tok also seem nt gd..am i going to succeed? am i going to open my cafe? am i able to a lot of thing i like? my capability seem like......in a somewhere bottom of the hole....but still thinking whether i wan to take tt rope to go up or nt........
am i troublemaker? very much to it......can cause a lot of trouble...even i in primary sch i was in trouble becoz of my bro....n also in sec sch becoz of my look....n now becoz of tongue? tongue wagged? there is 2 person let me now very nt gd....n maybe i also shoud b blame....so wat now?