unwillingness

Unwillingness is an attitude that i dun like a lot. I may have this problem but i will not show it out and tell myself to do to convenience others instead. However i often meet ppl tt r unwillinging to help me n give me substandard things to me. To me, i rather the person jus sae dun wan 2 help then give me sub-standard thing. This also cause me to do it myself the the thing that i want. I demand high so i want the things to be done well n with excellent. However i haven't reallly meet ppl that i cn work with had the attitude as mine. Give me the unsatisfactory feeling n frustration to work tgt if the result is bad.
Pei Fen and Serene had talk about unwillingness too. If the ppl mind is so unwilling to wear those pretty stuff, then they won't able to carry out the style she suppose to have. Spoilt the fun, spoilt the taste and the efforts of the designer. What A Waste!!! So if u want, be willing or else forget it! Be honest and truthful is what i seek for all my team members, friends n etc that i goin to contact with. I'm a person who think a lot, and dun like suspense unless i'm watchin a movie. If u want to train my patient, then do all things that i dun like. Else, dun't even think about it. :)
If u nt illing to give, dun give! Or else it'll be return back to you and receive no blessing. Tts so sad!!!
I'm pretty upset and angry about some past. However i really nid to let go or else i'm goin to suffer for the sake of the fruit of the bitterness in my heart. My mind in a whirl and heart is in a mess. Dun noe wat i wan and time is passing so fast. Undeniable is that God really bless me so much that i know truly is God's Works! So i really nid to buck up for His Purpose, however inadequency n frustration limits me. :( hmmm
Break out my mindset and renew it. Stir in my heart a new fire that lift up my bitterness to God. Instead of my will, my strength, let it be Ur will n Ur strength to be manifest! :)