recently update

hmm..recently gt a sad thing happen at my family and that is my grandpa's death. Abit too sudden for my relatives and my family. even though few months ago know he had diagnose with cancer and he may nt live long. Still he seem alright at the start of the Chinese New year, but who know. jus a few days, the cancer cells spread and then he..
on feb 18, tuesday, i was bathing on the morning. my dad call n sae that my grandpa left few hours on earth. so some of us who r at home immediately go to hospital and many of the relatives r there crying. i also wan 2 cry, but didn't cry much as my grandma is there who had nt been in gd health. he is nt in a gd shape, quite sick n is sub-conscious. even though we tok to him but he had nt much reponse, and he is depending on the machine to breath. doctor sae that his belly is big because the liver had burst out n bleeding internal. looking at him, i jus feel so sad n helpless. what can i do now to help him or even comfort my relatives, grandma n dad? i pray to God tt to let him continue live n dun wan him 2 pass away so fast as he haven know God! indeed he didn't die after 12pm which the doctor had sae the hour tt he will leave the earth. but he is still suffering, n then serene reply my sms. she told me tt sometime maybe is gd to let him go instead of see him suffer. n i was troubled by it, i dunno if to let him go or wat. in the end, i pray again tt he will had the peace of God n stop the suffering. then at 9plus pm when i'm at home, i sudden feel that he had left the earth. shortly, my bro call dad n my dad is crying as my grandpa really gone. then we quickly take bus n taxi to there to c his last face. didn't cry but fill with tears, then my relatives n dad had cry finish. so they start to prepare his funeral. so from tue to sat is all the funeral things and is quite tiring. sat is the last journey with him n then he was burial at the cementary. many cried, but still all accepting the fact. but i still a bit nt used tt he had die n then i can't wear red, purple, brown, pink, yellow n bright color in this 49 days n no makeup, cut hairs n etc. mourning until 7th april n still had to go to the cemetery on this day n 28 may. there is still things to do, taoist funeral is so..
i dun wan 2 c any death n i wan more ppl to get saved, noe God plus experience His love! hmm..in this funeral, there is so many quarrel n my parents jus keep on thinking of the word, death. this is bad, as they r confess death. man, bind the spirit of death! in Jesus name, Amen!
then i also miss out few days of sch n this cause me to lost time to do projects! i graduating and now i'm stress over dateline! but prayers plus hardwork will surely solve it! Jia you for every students! Jia you liruth! haha
man..i had decide to work but i wan to study too. i nid to had a heart of thanksgiving and know that there is something good for me is install but i dunno yet. So i nid to perseverance and visualize(dreaming is my forte? haha).
my emotions also had not been stable, but recently i had focus back on wat i shld focus and nw back to cheerful ruth! hehe
recently, i had nt been reading blogs as too much things happen tt nid my attention.
but nw i back and so start to prepare myself to do more things in my cca, family, cg n etc. thanks God for my close frien(serene, chowtee, huimin, elaine, annisa n my cg members who do small things or big things tt will jus cheer me and be there for me!) God is really faithful to me. He's alway there even though i'm at the funeral at my house. even though i can't read bible, do qt n etc. but i still can feel His presence and able to do things even if i'm tired! hehe..i love my God, Jesus and Holy Spirit! my tee-shirt print sae: Time is treasure once it pass will never return. so man, wat done is done..dun regret n move on! be wise and make correct decision!
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