i am sad

i nothing but cause problem...u noe wat...i a selfish and even the worst criminal can't compare 2 mi....i conform by the world n nt transform...but i really want 2 be wat God want..but i so useless as i juz disappoint Him everytime except one time i think...i now listening 2 a christian song...it sing...everyday i live 4 U....ya..if i live 4 Him..all kind of problem won't be in my life...but y can't i do it? y can't i reach the standard? n i useless? or nt disclipline? ya...sometime i even try 2 torture myself..as i also try 2 harden my heart as so next time when i m sad or i fail anything..i won't feel so sad...but this time i m very pain..is it my heart no harden?or i very useless? ya it me who sensitive to people...so can't do anything...n i make myself miserable onli..i can't balance myself in my life as i can't myself in riding the bicycle..i will fall but if i dun try i will nt suceed...but i scared my life will like my english..as i noe i will fail so i will nt try as i evertime fail so it also dun exclude this time.

i today go out with erjie, xiaohui n her bro have nice day...we also buy the spray 2 spray hair...i think is nice but i care ppl opinion so i didn't spray my hair...even though washable...i found my ringtone

i will want 2 Live 4 Jesus but nt mi...but no idea..